I decided to spend this week at home
just to rest. The plan was not to do anything serious except blog and pray.
Though I still had to do some runs it was a pretty slow week.
As I enjoyed my free time this turned
into something else. I would wake up feeling bored and all anxious. I looked
over my life and started to regret my actions and inaction. It seemed all the
sunshine had been nipped out of my life. I became critical and got sucked in
deeper into boredom. I was just helpless. I wondered how all joy seemed to have
vanished into thin air. I asked myself why I was feeling so hopeless.
It was as though what I had needed to be discouraged was just to take time off. I was drowning in a myriad of
emotions and these weren't good emotions. My flaws and short comings were
glaringly staring at me in the face. It was as though my life was all a big
joke.
