When I was in my third year in the
university I made a new friend that pointed out to me that I was a negative
thinker. And of course I was furious within and didn't accept that until he
explained to me why he had said that. It made sense so I began to check my
thought pattern.
I always thought in the positive and
soon began speaking positively but years down the line I just realised that
though my words are always positive, my negative thinking had returned. I admit
I was shocked when I discovered that! I was like, "oh my God, what am I doing to
myself?" I began to search myself and I recognised that I felt thinking
negatively shielded me from disappointment, heart break and pain. I thought that
if I saw the worst then whether whatever happened was good or bad it wouldn't
matter to me since I had prepared myself mentally for it. Sad, right?
